Tag: depression

Get comfortable with being uncomfortable

Get comfortable with being uncomfortable

This is not an easy post to write. I haven’t written here at all since January, when I was rapidly failing at trying to publicly state something good about myself each day. It lasted 2 days. And seeing where I am right now, that’s not at all surprising. I ended up changing that goal to …

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Things & Stuff & WTF

Things & Stuff & WTF

It’s been several months now since my dream of becoming an Ironman came true. I’ve cut off my athlete bracelet, my new tattoo is healed and I’m still trying to figure out what my new normal looks like. I’m also trying to remember everything I learned about myself through this process, knowing I am not …

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The weird truth about transformation

The weird truth about transformation

I went in for my last strength session before Ironman, and was trying to describe to Josh how weird I feel about my body right now. I’ll get more into that in a minute, but he said something to me that really stuck in my brain. After I pointed at my bicep as I executed …

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Pre-overload BLAH

Pre-overload BLAH

After my really-good-but-not-what-I-worked-for race results, I definitely hit a big funk. Not my normal post-race blues, either…I wasn’t sad the event was over. I was relieved it was behind me, that I got through it. This time last year, that would have been it for me. My season ended at Ohio last summer. This year, …

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Self Love is Hard as Sh*t

Self Love is Hard as Sh*t

Last week, I shared a few photos on social media of my journey, in the hopes that by owning them, it wouldn’t be as cringe-inducing to see them re-posted by my personal trainer and my coach this week as success stories. I could only bring myself to share one of the many before/afters I’d taken …

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When I Grow Up…

When I Grow Up…

I had (am having? am always having and will always have?) questions about why I’m doing this Ironman thing, what I’m doing with my life, who I want to be when I grow up, how I want people to know me…basically, I feel like I’m living in a constant identity crisis. And I think that’s …

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FU (which I recently found out means FOLLOW UP)

FU (which I recently found out means FOLLOW UP)

That was a funny day, learning there’s more than one meaning to FU. Who knew? Corporate America, that’s who. After my last post on anxiety, I realized I had a few more general nuggets (which is maybe what Mickey D’s should rename their classic menu item of questionable origin) to share. – Sometimes, it is …

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Hello again, anxiety…

Hello again, anxiety…

Being a triathlete is hard. Being a halfway responsible grownup is hard. Being both of those at the same time is hard. Being both of those AND dealing with anxiety and depression? Well, it’s hard AF. Not always. Some days, like a lot of days I’ve had recently, have been easy. I cherish these days, …

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