My blog has been woefully neglected over the last month. I’ve had a lot going on, but even more so, I’ve had an influx of ridiculous blog spam. I don’t like having comments in moderation, so I generally try to get rid of the spam before I write…but there’s been so much that spamming comments has been exhausting, leaving no energy for writing new posts. So I decided to leave the comments for now and write.
However, the bubble announcing that I have 1569 comments awaiting moderation is making me twitchy.
Anywhoodles, I think I’ve told most of the planet already, but I’m starting a new gig at the beginning of the year. I’m ridiculously excited about it, but it hasn’t really sunk in yet that I’m leaving. It really hasn’t sunk in that today is my last full day here. I’ll only be in Wednesday for an hour to finish wrapping things up, and then I’m out for good.
It feels so strange. I mean, this was technically my first real fulltime job, even though the original company is defunct. Same people for the most part, same clients…so it’s the same job. I’ve been here over three years. Giving notice was the most stressful thing I’ve had to do in recent history (including a just-to-be-sure-this-nausea-isn’t-a-human-parasite-pregnancy test on Christmas). I was a wreck, but for no reason. It went well, it’s been handled well…but I just feel weird. Don’t know why, though.
I’m so nervous for my first day. I need to pick out an outfit that’s casual and cute. I need to wash my car. I’m getting my herrs did tomorrow night (my lowlights will be much more purple this time for added funk). But…what if they don’t like me? What if I suck? What if this whole thing was just a really mean prank and isn’t even real? That would suck. It just doesn’t seem like this is really happening. I’m scared out of my mind! Totally second-guessing myself. I hate that.
I’m good enough. I’m smart enough. And gosh darnit, people like me.
Lather, rinse, repeat.
So…here’s hoping for a spectacular new year. Let 2010 kick the living shit out of 2009! Let LOLcats entertain you in the meantime: