Archive for November, 2009
Yeah, it’s Thanksgiving tomorrow. No, I’m not that excited, except by the fact that I get a 4-day weekend. Halle-fucking-lujah. I’ve slowly been breaking down over the last couple of weeks and I need time away.
I’ve gotten bad news after bad news lately and it’s been draining me of energy and motivation to stay healthy. I’ve gained a few pounds and I’m just down in general. So getting excited about the holiday and all of its exhausting family glory has been difficult to say the least. I’m grateful to have a big enough family to require travel and such, but I’m just not in the mood to play all nicey-nicey with the few relatives I have difficulty tolerating.
So, as an exercise in positivity (*pukes in mouth a little*), I’m going to force myself to list out all the things for which I am thankful. Here goes…
- My loving husband and best friend, who inexplicably hasn’t kicked me to the curb yet.
- My close relationship with my mom, stepdad, sister and brother.
- My Aunt Genny, who is so like Grandma V that it makes me sad sometimes, but also makes me happy to have her in my life.
- My health, even though I’ve been lacking in taking great care of myself the past couple of weeks.
- My paycheck…let’s leave it at that.
- My pup and asshole cat – entertainment would be much more expensive without them and our home far less hairy.
- Our home and all of its mess-filled glory.
- My amazing friends, without whom I would be a total wreck and loser. Thanks, ladies. You all know who you are.
- My extended family…hitting multiple houses each holiday is stressful as hell, but it would be far more depressing if I had nowhere to go.
- My car and its awesome gas mileage.
- Free recycling pickup at my house…it’s amazing how much I cringe at the thought of throwing plastic and glass in a normal trash can.
- The fact that I am a human and not a turkey.
I’m sure I’m missing lots of stuff here, but this covers the major things and makes me feel slightly better. I just feel so blah. Not even shopping at Kohl’s last night could make me feel better, and that’s really saying something. I hope that baking tonight will help me come around a little, but who knows?
Is anyone else in a major holiday funk this year? Aside from drinking lots of wine, what do you do to snap out of it? I need to find my happy place…this isn’t quite it, though…
Oh, well…Happy Zombie Turkey Day!
Remember me? Yeah, I’m not dead or anything. I’ve just been too busy or lazy or uninspired to write in the last few weeks. Depends on the day. Since I’m sitting here, waiting for client feedback (which will, undoubtedly, be enlightening and world-changing *cough*), I figured I’d take a few minutes to check in with the blogosphere. I’ve also sucked at commenting lately, too, so sorry about that.
I took a week off from working out and dieting, which was great for lots of reasons. First, it showed me that I really miss how I feel after a good workout. I may have a hard time motivating myself some days to go downstairs and punch, kick and swear myself into fitness glory, but when I don’t do it, I physically feel the difference. My jiggle is jigglier, my cottage cheese is cheesier, my arms wave goodbye even longer than usual…and my energy is down. I also feel it emotionally and mentally. I’m weepier, more sensitive, crabbier and altogether far less pleasant to be around. Sorry, T.
I’ve also been a bit discouraged that I’m not losing any sort of big numbers, but when shopping yesterday, I tried on a pair of size 10 jeans that weren’t the brand that runs a bit big – and they FIT. I didn’t buy them because it seems like there’s a big length difference between a 12 and a 10 and I hate looking like I survived a flood, but I have $20 Kohl’s Cash and I think they might come in long…we shall see. They were really awesome jeans. Or maybe they just made me feel really awesome, but actually, what’s the difference? If I feel awesome, people will totally believe that I am, in fact, awesome. Right?
Anyway, even knowing the difference between when I work out and when I don’t, I’ve still been majorly pressed for time in the last week and haven’t been able to motivate myself to find the extra time to work out every single day…I think I only covered Sunday, Monday and Saturday of last week, with a short dog walk on Tuesday. Part of this, I believe, is that I’ve grown a bit tired of my workouts and I need to change things up a bit. I can only “bring some intention” to level 3 so many times in a week before I want to shove that intention and my dumbells down Jillian’s fucking throat.
So I went to Zumba yesterday with Ms. B and today I still can barely walk. I love it. I really need to integrate this into my weekly lineup, but it’s so hard to get to a 9 AM Sunday class every single week, and I want to do it more than just once…so I caved and ordered the Total Body Transformation System DVD Set from Zumba.com. I’ll let you all know how I like it when it arrives. I’m excited, and hope that it at least helps me look like less of a stumbling nincompoop while I’m in class.
Part of the reason I’ve been so busy is because I’ve needed to bake a bit more than usual, and when I bake, I crank up the SassyPod and dance like an idiot. It’s amazing stress relief, it burns calories and it’s just fun. I think it makes my cupcakes taste better, too. I’m kind of obsessed. I think Mr. T would like me to stop challenging him to a Pants Off Dance Off…but isn’t that a funny mental image? Mr. T (the real one, or mine…equally hilarious in different ways) in a tighty-whitey battle royale of booty shaking? He’ll probably yell at me if I don’t clarify, so no, he doesn’t actually wear tighty-whities…it just adds hilarity to scene.
ANYWAY…this also made me realize that, since dancing is a great workout AND it’s tons of fun, I should really try to incorporate more of than into my weekly routine. Thus, the Zumba DVDs and…wait for it…I finally ordered the Get Fit workout DVDs from So You Think You Can Dance. Yeah, Kupono totally sold me on them when I saw the concert on Nov. 1. I’ve been trying to find them in stores for weeks, but have been unsuccessful, so I caved and bought them from Target.com. Again, I’ll let you know how I like them once I try them out. I really hope that A) my uncoordinated ass can actually DO the workouts and B) they’re gonna make me sweat till I bleed. Okay, not actually, but who doesn’t love some C&C Music Factory??
Sidebar…did you know that one of the lyrics to that song is “…It’s your world and I’m just a squirrel/Trying to get a nut to move your butt to the dance floor…” I’m the master of mis-hearing lyrics (hello, “Hold me close now, Tony Danza”???), but this is real. And hysterical. Almost as good as “I used to be commander-in-chief of my pimp ship, flyin’ high”…or maybe it’s even better. Not many songs incorporate mentions of furry-tailed rodents with synthesizers and heavy bass.
Well, that was a fun trip down Random Lane. Until next time, here’s this: